I apologize for my cowardice (that make sense right?)

It is now early sunday morning and I haven't kept my word... I was suppose to call Annie/Jacky/Chris and everyone else to arrange a get-together, unfortunately I did'nt do any of that. So if any of you are reading this...Please don't be mad! I really am sorry....its just that I'm not a very good events planner nor am I very good with talking on the phone with you all.....as you can see that's probably why I'm MIA all the time! (I know excuses...excuses!) Again I sincerely apoligize......How bout we get-2gether after the holidays okay? This is probably why I"m losing friends from left to right....and yes I have friends thank you very much!

The art of kissing

For my birthday, I received an Italian-French-kissing boy whose nicotine aftertaste is still residing in my mouth; furthermore, we spent the whole night at English Bay star-gazing and playing hookie.

SHAME FACE

If a guy in a suit walks down the streets of downtown handing out money to the poor, would that make him a better person than you and me? If we were the one receiving the money would we judge him; perhaps spit in his face and tell him to fuck off or do we accept the money as graciously as possible? Would it be charity: pity money for the poor maybe, salvation for our guilty conscious mind?

They approach us asking for money, palms held out as if in mid prayer during mass; but in this case it’s more like a prayer of hope, a prayer of understanding—acceptance perhaps. We see it in their eyes—a silent plea of help—they litter the streets of downtown, how can we not see them you ask? I ask that myself, every time I’m there; however, the question is not about seeing them, its more like why do we not acknowledge them. They are the nameless individuals; the forgotten ones force to survive on their own. We are approached by them everyday, and yet we look the other way in shame, ostracizing them for what they are not. Maybe as a society we are just not ready to accept that in every paradise there are dirty secrets hidden away—open your eyes and you’ll know.

OMIGOD!

Holy crap! I thought today was going to be a bad day at work but apperantly I was wrong, getting four hours of sleep the night before must have done the trick. I believe I have scored a date for NEW YEAR'S EVE. hmmmmmm.....he's this adorable italian cutie who has a to-die-for-accent who visits my work from time to time. So anyways, I just happened to be in a flirty mood today afternoon when he came to visit me. (lol) Dont ask me how it happened cuz I sure as hell don't know, but somehow someway we ended up exchanging numbers so that we can play hookie sunday night......it just happens to be my birthday that day :) maybe just maybe my luck will run that long...who knows (wink wink) Who would have thought I could have picked up a guy and vice versa without my make-up on. If this keeps up I may have a good collection of numbers going on. Lets just call it, "MY LITTLE BLACK BOOK" I know how original. On a sour note, I just arrived home and I was suppose to call Annie..... :( I don't think it would be a good idea to call at this hour....it would be totally rude plus I'm not really sure how she would act over the phone at this ungodly hour (if your reading this Annie, I sincerely apologize for not having the balls to call you tonight....please forgive and forget?); hence, I'll call her tomorrow....and all the other people I'm suppose to call in order to organize our little pre-new-year get 2 gether. Dude I so don't know what I'm doing!

BOXING DAY!

I'M BROKE SO THEREFORE I DID'NT GO SHOPPING :( BROKE AS IN NO CASH ONLY BITS AND PIECES OF COINS ..... I FEEL LIKE CRYING

hmmmm... NOT BAD!

I just arrived from the movies.....wooohoo! CASINO ROYALE was'nt as bad as I thought. I think I'm starting to like action movies better.... WATCH IT!

I am happy again!

I feel much better now that I know chris admitted his supposed party was sad. I dont feel much of a loser now and have no reason to overdose on sleeping pills. MERRY CHRISTMAS EVERYONE & A HAPPY NEW YEARS!

:(

Today is Christmas Eve. Tomorrow is Christmas. I have to clean the house and I"m not sure if I'm going to be looking forward to doing that. I'm not done christmas shopping.......and.......I'm hearing this little voice in my head that is constantly chirping, "your doomed...your doomed" huh...I guess its going to be my funeral sometime soon. (Please dont forget to buy coffee cake). My birthday is 7 days away. Yea baby! I'm soon to be 19 yrs. old ....WATCH OUT WORLD! I dont think I want to celebrate my birthday. I mean the only significant thing about birthdays is that they remind you that your growing old every year. Following that thought, I've been seeing white hair sprouting from my scalp lately. I don't really know what that means...maybe I"m defficient in nutrients or that I"m going to be a premature Granny. (lol) and I haven't yet reached my sixties :)

WHY IS CRIS MAD AT ME?

OKAY WHAT DID I DO TO PISS OFF CHRIS!? I HEARD ON SATURDAY NIGHT THAT CHRIS WAS HAVING A PARTY. HOW COME I WAS'NT INVITED? I FEEL LIKE A SOCIAL OUTCAST NOW :(

PLEASE KILL ANNIE!

ANNIE WILL NOT LEAVE ME ALONE. PLEASE KILL HER FOR ME. I PROMISE I WONT TELL. JUST TELL HER TO SHUT UP AND I'LL DIE A HAPPY DEATH.

MY MANAGER HAS LEFT!

TODAY WAS THE LAST SHIFT FOR BRITTNEY. I DONT THINK I WANT TO WORK ANYMORE. THIS SUCKS! WHY BRITT. WHY DO YOU HAVE TO ABANDON ME!?? EVERYONE AT WORK IS SO BLOODY BORING. NOONE'S A HOMO. HOBO. A DRUGGIE TRIPPIN ON ACID OR A JOKERS ... THEY'RE JUST BLAH! NO ONE REALLY STICKS OUT FROM THE CROWD. THEIR LIKE THIS BLAND MASH POTAT. SHIT! NOW WHAT DO I DO?! MY BOSS IS CURRENTLY TRAINING ME TO BECOME A MANAGER. HE SAID THERE'LL BE BENEFITS INVOLVE. GUEES WHAT KIND OF BENEFITS HIS TALKING ABOUT......LADILA YOU GUESSED IT ... FREE FOOD! ... YEA BABY I'M SUPER ECSTATIC WOOHOOO! THAT IS SHIT! I WAS EXPECTING HIM TO SAY THAT HE'LL GIVE ME A BLOODY RAISE OR SOMETHIN..... WHATEVER....THIS IS CRAP I BETTER GET A RAISE OR ELSE I'M WALKING! STUPID CHEAP ASIAN! (oh wait i'm asian too!)

sincerely, your beloved ~G ann~

I WANT MY BURGER BACK!

Dammit I'm just to bloody nice, seriously! Okay so I come out of the A n' W store with a newly bought chubby chicken burger that I've been craving for a while and what do you know, a hobo. (sorry for the derogatory label oh homeless one) comes walking towards me, slowly stalking my every move. Guess what he asked me? Do you have any change to spare or food perhaps? Since I didn't feel like reaching into my purse to get my change I instead shoved my A n' W bag that contained my juicy burger to the guy without a second thought. (I better have entry to heaven for this gracious act, Do You Hear Me God?!) Me and my bloody generous heart.....God bless you Gladys you are ever so kind....Anyways so much for being kind because I am now regretting giving away my burger. I'm Hungry Dammit! I WANT MY BURGER BACK!

love ~Gann~

WOAH LOOK AT THE TIME!

WOW TALK ABOUT AN ACID ROAD-TRIP. I JUST DROVE FROM PORT COQUITLAM TO RICHMOND IN 30 MINS. MAX. HONESTLY WHY HAVE I NEVER DROVE BEFORE? ITS THE BEST. ESPECIALLY WHEN YOU NEARLY KILL A PEDESTRIAN ON THE ROAD WHILE ALL THE WHILE YOUR DAD IS CUSSING AT YOU FOR BEING A MOTHER-FUCKING-STUPID-ASS DRIVER WHOSE TRIPPIN ON ACID. LOL! I LOVE I T WHEN I SCARE THE BEJEESUS OUT OF MY FATHER. WHO KNOWS I MAYJUST BE THE CAUSE OF HIS EARLY DEMISE. I AM VERY QUIITE PROUD THAT HE COMMENTED THAT I AM VERY MUCH HIS DAUGHTER WHEN IT COMES TO DRIVING. :)

RANT

What the hell? My stupid sister woke me up from a good sleep because I had a phone call. Lets see, I have 3 choices in how to go about this situation. 1) I can ignore my sister and the stupid telphone so that I can go back to sleep. 2) Take the phone call and pretend to not understand english. 3) Or take the phone call and hang up. ........Unfortunately my sister that sick of waiting for my response, so instead of being considerate enough to have let me sleep, she started yelling at me! Stupid, stupid girl, I'm going to kill her. Does she not understand that I have work today afternoon and my beauty sleep is much more important than a stupid phone call? Whatever. Anyways, it seems like the phone call was for a BMO credit card. The lady on the phone seemed to not understand that I was recently woken from my slumber and did'nt fuckin care whether I had a credit line or not. The whole conversation was a waste because it turns out I'm only eighteen; hence to young to apply for a credit card. :( Stupid lady with her stupid offer, maybe I should kill before killing my stupid sister. Now that I'm finish with my rant I can go back to sleep :)

I CAN'T SLEEP!

HOLY CRAP! CAN A PERSON DIE WITHOUT SLEEPING? HONEST TO GOD I JUST WANT THIS WEEK TO END SO THEN I HAVE A CHANCE TO SLEEP. I'VE BEEN THINKING OF GOING TO MY DOCTOR AND ASKING FOR A BOTTLE OF SLEEPING PILLS MAYBE THAT WILL HELP. OH WHO KNOWS! I SURE DONT. WELL WHATEVER, I JUST NEED TO SLEEP BEFORE I HAVE A BURN OUT. GOOD NIGHT. ACTUALLU GOOD-DAY!

EWW....BOYS ARE STUPID. THEIR COCKY SMILE AND OBNOXIOUS PICK-UP-LINES ARE JUST OVERRATED. SOMETIMES I WISH WE GALS CAN HAVE THE CHANCE TO CUSTOMIZED THE GUYS WE CHOOSE TO BE WITH, BUT THEN WHERE'S THE INTRIGUE IN THAT? OH WELL, I'D LIKE TO THINK THAT LIFE WOULD BE ALOT EASIER. AT LEAST THEN WE HAVE THE CONTROL OVER THOSE LITTLEST THINGS. JUST THINK: WE COULD PICK OUT THEIR OUTFITS, THEIR PERSONALITIES, AND THEIR ANNOYING LITTLE QUIRKS. WHAT A GENIOUS IDEA OUR VERY OWN DOLLS!

SINCERELY WYOUR,
~ G ann ~

DOOM GLOOM

I HATE THIS COMING HOLIDAYS. EVERYONE'S SO BLOODY HAPPY THAT IT'S TOTALLY NOTICABLE THAT THEY'RE ALL FAKE. I'M NOT GOING TO BEAT AROUND THE BUSH; HENCE, I MAY AS WELL SAY IT: I HATE CHRISTMAS! I HATE ALL THE TEDIOUS GIFTWRAPPINGS AND THE EXORBITANT AMOUNT OF MONEY PEOPLE THROW AWAY. I HATE THE BLOODY CHRISTMAS SONGS THAT ARE CONSTANTLY FOLLOWING YOU AROUND WHEREVER YOU GO AND THE FACT THAT YOUR EXPECTED TO SMILE, SMILE, SMILE BECAUSE THAT IS WHAT FUCKING CHRISTMAS IS ALL ABOUT! THANK GOD ITS A HOLIDAY THAT ONLY OCCURS ONCE A YEAR, BUT ON THAT NOTE, THERE'S NEW YEARS AROUND THE CORNER. I'M GRUDGINGLY ADMITTING THAT THAT HOLIDAY IS MUCH BETTER THAN X-MAS BECAUSE AT LEAST THERE'S ALCOHOL TO GET YOU THROUGH THE LONG NIGHT.

MY VANITY HAS CAUSED THIS!

MY EYES ARE SWOLLEN, MY HEAD IS SPINNING, AND I FEEL NAUSEOUS. CRAP!

FYI I AM NOT HAVING A HANGOVER.

IT IS NOW 5:43 PM AND I JUST WOKE UP.

I THINK A SPIDER HAS BIT MY EYE LIDS BECAUSE I CAN'T SEEM TO MAKE THEM

WORK PROPERLY. IT SEEMS THAT I'M JUMPING FROM ONE SUBJECT TO

ANOTHER SO I THINK I SHALL STOP AND GO BACK TO SLEEP. THANK GOD I DONT

HAVE WORK TOMORROW.

WASTED MONEY

WINTER COAT: $451
SNOW BOOTS: $208
JACOB COAT: $175
JACOB JEANS: $80
LULULEMON
TRACK PANTS: $101



TOTAL MONEY SPENT: TOOO MUCH!