Cherish :)

I was given a sacred gift today by a precious friend: a cross blessed by the Pope. I wore it around my neck this afternoon, but I had to take it off. Right now I feel as if I'm not worthy enough to wear something so precious, but I will store this precious gift somewhere safe. I am touched that this special friend of mine believes that I am worth the effort of saving. At the moment I'm not happy with myself. Part of my self respect has been destroyed. I have somehow lost my way this couple of years, lost the anchor of my true being, a fraction of my identity has been fractured--I do not know how to get it back, if ever. I envy this friend of mine, I envy her moral beliefs, her religious ways and moral ethics, she remains true to herself and this is what I envy the most. I want to believe that I am worth the effort of saving, but right now I'm not so sure.