What do you do when your sitting in front of the computer and the clock is nearing four-thirty in the morning?

I am contemplating.... ..... the year is 2009 and it is humiliating to admit that I Gladys Ann Opeda who recently turned 21, has done nothing with my life.

From throwing thousands of dollars towards my college funds to failing pathology last summer and inevitably getting kicked out from the nursing program to simultaneously letting my driver licence expire and breaking up and getting back together with my on again and off again boyfriend, I have accomplished nothing whatsoever. I have come at a full circle.

From the fall of 08 till now, I have gone through a torrential downpour of emotions from depression, humiliation, disappointment, sadness, anger and denial and finally acceptance over my stupidity.

I have yet to find my inner courage to confront my dad and announce to him that his younger daughter will not be following through with her plans of becoming a nurse.

So here I sit in front of my computer eye balling the clock as I typed out my first blog in months....